If I Knew Then What I Know Now

Do you ever find yourself asking "what happened? My life was not supposed to turn out this way. This is not how I expected it to happen!" Often this query runs through my mind relentlessly. And I go back in time and wonder what I would have done differently and when.  My old self is not my new self. My old self would not have understood what my new self does, clearly, because maybe now would be different if I knew then what I know now. But would a current different be better?

My Monster

Poetry Corner

This Blog Post was not authored by me, Elizabeth. This post was authored completely by KC. He posted this exact post on Facebook on February 1st, 2017. I want to preserve his emotions in my blog because I find his words profound, deep and moving. 

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First - I'm OK...  

Second - only a few of my close friends know this about me.  I'm Bipolar and this is also why my speech is slow, I shake and I get dizzy easily <picture Jack Sparrow if you will>. I have a hard time finding words and it makes me look slow and unintelligent.

Being Bipolar is scary its unpredictable at times.  My wife Elizabeth and the kids hop on the Bipolar Roller Coaster, it's difficult to get off the coaster and is not as fun as it sounds.

I wrote this poem showing what it's like.  I call the poem "My Monster".  

Boundaries, Behaviors & Decisions to Stay or Go

Boundaries

Throughout my blog posts, I have asserted that I choose to stay with DH. Over and over again I have stated that come hell or high water, we are in it for the long haul. My choice is not your choice. Your choice can be the same as mine. My choice can be different from yours.

You Are Not Alone

No matter how many times death brushes against you, the sting always stings. The breath that is taken away always gives the words you speak that breathless sound.

Safety Plans for the Mentally Ill

Sure, we all agree figuring out "what if" scenarios is a smart thing to do. Sure, those who have an individual with mental illness in their life understand that in an instant the world can turn upside down. Sure, we all recognize that planning for future events now eases the unforeseen upheavals.

Here's the thing about safety plans; they are hard to broach with the mentally ill person. Often the mentally ill person does not believe that their illness is bad enough to warrant such a measure. The truth of the matter is, we often do not know how our loved one will respond when we decide to approach them.